Waiting on my break-down... this crying on and off again is driving me nuts, just waiting to see when i am going to really lose my mind over this. I dont know what is normal, am i normal?, Am i acting and feeling what i should? My grandmother raised me, i called her mom until i was 9yrs old, so losing her was like losing my mother. My grandmother was my everything, my world... i did everything i could for her without being asked.... She got dementia and i took care of her for quite a few yrs, then she wanted to go into a nursing home... I didnt want her to but agreed that if she ever asked that i would take her, on her own terms. She lasted 8 weeks and then i lost her. She was 83 and beautiful. I lost my world, my everything. I hope she knows that she was never a bother, even when we got on each others nerves,lol. Both hard headed and thats ok with me.... I just hope that everything she believed in is true........ I Love You Grandma!
Dont worry, she knew how much you cared and knew she wasnt a bother. Grandma's tend to know these things. You were a great grandchild and I am sure she was grateful for everything you did.
