My grandmom passed away 2 weeks ago...

by Joseph Merrick

She was 95. I lived with her the 8-10 years of my life. Until last week, I had never seen photos of my grandmother when she was younger. She was cute kid and she seemed happy playing with her sisters and parents. As I grieve for the grandmother I know, I now weep for the grandmother I never knew. A baby. A child, A teenager. She was a wonderful sister and a compassionate aunt. She cared for many and would do her best to make others happy.

My heart aches knowing she sacrificed her life to maintain a marriage that she should have never entered. My blood boils knowing that her daughters are incompetent people who slowly drained away her life and money. My mind knows I was a lazy and selfish grandson. For this mistake, I will never forgive or forget.

There is afterlife and my words and thoughts end with me. I will do my best to preserve your memory. I will cherish and protect the photos that you left me. I am sorry if I failed or disappointed you. Thanks you for your love.

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Nov 17, 2013
Grandmothers death
by: Anonymous

I'm sorry for loss. I just lost my grandmother three days ago and I am completely heartbroken. I just can't seem to get over it myself. I know what you are going through. May God bless you and your family.

Nov 13, 2013
My grandmom passed away 2 weeks ago....
by: Doreen UK

Joseph I am sorry for your loss of your grandmother. She was of an age when this passing was expected but one is nevertheless never prepared to lose a loved one no matter how old they are. She was blessed with her age of passing. In life we have many trials, tribulations and family problems to deal with. It is grief that brings many things to the surface and grief assaults us with them. In time they do pass out of us, because it is all part of life. We have family members who frustrate and anger us by their behaviour and selfishness. But A mother and grandmother has enough love in her to absorb all the fractures of life and still go on loving. It matter's not how selfish you were your grandmother would have forgiven you. Often it is us who can't forgive ourselves for our human failings. Often in life we mature at different rates and it is our lack of maturity that causes us to behave in a wrong way. When we come to maturity it is then that all these mistakes bother us. You can do nothing to change what happened in the past, but you can make a deal to live a better future. Life is a learning field. We all wish we could get to do it all over again and we say we would do things differently. But you know what? We would probably do it the same way because we didn't know any better. By the time we bring children up we learn a lot and when we are old enough to have grandchildren we could probably get our degree in parenthood. But then it is too late because our children are grown up and we don't get to re-parent. Now you should forgive yourself and build a better life for yourself. Leave your sister's to work out their own problems. Don't carry someone else's load. I learned this too late. We actually injure ourselves emotionally. Keep balanced. I am sorry for your loss. I wish you all the best in life.

Nov 12, 2013
I admire you
by: Bereaved daughter

Dear Joseph, Please accept my condolences on the loss of your grandmother.

The fact you feel remorse proves you are like your kind grandmother. I am sure your company meant a lot to her and you seem so aware of her hardships and challenges.

My darling mum died recently. I am not blessed with children, but wish like she did that I was. Her nephews and nieces treated her badly, never visiting her even when she was in a hospital where one of them worked.

When I read your post I was touched that a young man had the courage and sensitivity to realise that he did not get everything right.

But you cared and was there. That is all we can do.
Kind wishes.

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