My Grandmother

by Ashley
(Shortsville, New York, The united states)

Hi, i am 14 years old and my grandmother and i were very close. Every morning for 5 years i had been going down to her house for breakfast before school. She passed away on August 14th, 2010. She was a wonderful woman and will be missed dearly.

But i have going through a lot. For example i have been very violent towards my family when it comes to being spoken to about the way i act. I don't know why i act this way. I just do. I can't control my anger, especially when i start. I scare my self. I black out and don't remember what i had done. I understand that i can't keep doing what i'm doing but i don't know how to stop.

I understand that most of my feelings are from not talking about her death. I don't like to talk to anyone about any of this and i keep my anger and sadness up inside and then when my body can't take it anymore i lash out and say and do things that i know are wrong and shouldn't have done. I know when i say this i should take my own advice but you need to talk to somebody about it. If you don't worse things could and will happen. Trust me i know.

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Dec 08, 2011
Don't lose hope.
by: Sam

It has been 7 years since I lost my grandmother when I was only 13. The pain of losing a grandmother is just terrible. There is no other way to describe it. I was like you in that I tried to keep everything hidden inside after it happened, and it only made things worse. The longer I kept things hidden, the more I felt like I couldn't talk about it because so much time had passed. Eventually, it built up enough that I felt like I would burst, and I began to find healthier ways to deal with it. I hope that you can find the ability to do the same. One of my biggest problems was that I just felt I had no one to talk to. If you need someone to talk to about what you are feeling, you can email me at watsonse17@yahoo.com.

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