I lost my Grandma last December 2011. I know it has been a year, but I still grieve every day. My Granny was my life. She, along with my Papa, raised me from an infant. My mother and father were never really part of my life. My granny died of lung cancer; she hadn’t smoked in over 20 years. It made me so angry. She died only 3 months after diagnosis. She was 70 years old. She did chemo for a few weeks, but decided she didn’t want to be sick her remaining days. The cancer was too far spread. I still think of my Granny every day, and I find myself crying at random times. I find myself snapping at my husband for no reason. I hate feeling angry, and I hate feeling like a piece of my heart is missing. I don’t know how to cope with this loss. I loved her so much, and don’t know how to move on. I honestly think I need mental help, but I have always been the 'rock' in my family and don't know how to ask.