My Guardian Angel

by samantha

My grand mother had been dying of kidney failure for 6 years and every time they told her she had 6 months to live she had gone beyond that an blown the doctors minds. that's why when a month ago she took a turn for the worst i though she would pull through it but insted she passed away yesterday and it almost seems like a bad dream i wish i could wake up from. she was my best friend we did every thing together and i dont know how ill go on with out her. I feel like i didnt tell her how much i loved her but every one tells me how much she loved me that she wanted to were the scarf i made her when i was 12 when she is burried.the hardest thing for me was the note she wrote me stating how hard it is for her to leave me and pop and to never forget how much she loves me, every time i read it i cry.
She was the sweetest lady you would ever meet and i wish i could tell her one last time how much i love her.

When she died it happened around 6;00 on a Monday morning so me and my mother rushed over there to see her before they took her away i layed hugging and kissing her dead body for about half an hour praying shed come back. i still wear the earrings she died in. it so hard to go through her stuff considering im only 13 and she left the majority of her stuff to me. everything brings back memories that make me have emotional break downs. I have never lost anyone ive loved so much in my life so even though we knew she was going to die soon i hoped god got my prayers and would save her. but and i know i needed her more than god did but at least i have a special angel waiting for me in heaven and i cant wait to see her again.

the one saying that has got me through these times of pain is "I Have a Guardian Angel in heaven and i call her grandma"

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Mar 16, 2013
I know how you feel
by: Anonymous

I know this website says people don't know how you feel, but I really do. I knew deep down when I was 10 that i was going to lose her and after 3 years she died and she is my angel too.

Dec 07, 2012
My Guardian Angel
by: Doreen U.K.

Samantha I am sorry for your loss of your grandmother. You are so young at 13yrs. to have to face the death of someone you loved so much. You have a lot of Love and so would have a lot of grief. Make sure that you don't bottle up your feelings for your grandmother but express this. You will cry a lot for your grandmother. You will so sad and lonely and miss her so much you will wonder how you can go on with your life. These are the first feelings of loss. I you are having any difficulty make sure you get to see a grief counsellor otherwise you will suffer more down the line from repressed grief. This will make you ill over time.
I hope that you are well supported over time and that you are able to move forward and honour your grandmother in the most appropriate way for you.

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