My heart aches.

On November 28th, 2012, my girlfriend of four years passed away after a two-year battle with stage four glioblastoma. She never complained or asked why me. It will soon be one month since she has gone away. I have tried to be okay. I have gone through the motions. I go to work, spend time with family and friends, try to go on. Inside, I feel so sick. Tonight has been a particularly hard night Even knowing that her illness was a terrible and incurable one, I couldn't truly accept that she would die from it. I know I have a long road ahead. I wish I could just wake up in the morning and everything would be okay, but it won't. It won't be okay ever.

For anyone going through this, I am so sorry for you. It is such a desparate and lonely thing.

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Dec 23, 2012
My heart aches.
by: Doreen U.K.

I am sorry for your loss of your girlfriend. When you say that you can't believe she would really die of this disease? That is how I felt. March 28th 2009 My husband was diagnosed with a rare and serious form of lung cancer which was incurable, inoperable, and aggressive. Cancer caused by working with Asbestos. A cancer which takes at least 40-60yrs. to develop. It can't be detected. A silent killer cancer. YET. I thought my husband would not die of this. I believed God would Heal Him. When he died I couldn't believe it. It has been 7 months that he died and I still am looking out for him. I met people tonight that are on their own and they are coping. Perhaps we will also in Time. We have no choice to go on. I was married 44yrs. Almost a lifetime. It has gone too quickly I am wondering where the years have gone. My husband was due to retire. This was time for us. But He died too soon. Your heart will ache for a very long time. We have no choice when we are born and we have no choice when we die. Our life is all mapped out for us. When we live and when we die. If you are young you have your whole life in front of you and it will take time for you to live again. But I am 64yrs. and perhaps life is shorter for me. But living without your mate is just the worst thing ever to endure. Who wants to live alone after being together for years. We get used to each other and no one else can quite take our loved one's place. All we can do is live each day well and we may one day Heal from our loss and find our way back into this chaotic world. I hope that you will be comforted in your grief and loss of your girlfriend.

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