My heart aches.
On November 28th, 2012, my girlfriend of four years passed away after a two-year battle with stage four glioblastoma. She never complained or asked why me. It will soon be one month since she has gone away. I have tried to be okay. I have gone through the motions. I go to work, spend time with family and friends, try to go on. Inside, I feel so sick. Tonight has been a particularly hard night Even knowing that her illness was a terrible and incurable one, I couldn't truly accept that she would die from it. I know I have a long road ahead. I wish I could just wake up in the morning and everything would be okay, but it won't. It won't be okay ever.
For anyone going through this, I am so sorry for you. It is such a desparate and lonely thing.