My Heart Hurts
(Chicago, Illinois )
It will be a year on November 21st that my mom has been gone. They say the first anniversary is the hardest but every one of my dad's anniversaries have been hard. I feel myself feeling those feelings of guilt, anger, and depression. My 25th birthday is coming up and I'm not even excited because neither of my parents are alive to celebrate it with me. I would give anything to have them back. I have no siblings, it's only me.Do you guys have any suggestions on how to get through the first anniversary? I feel so sad already and it's my friend's birthday. I don't know how to tell her that it's hard for me to be around her and her family right now without feeling like a jerk. Man, this is hard...