My hero died from subarachnoid heamorhage!

My dad died almost a year ago. I am 33 years old and I still yearn for him. Although I am married with two kids, I still feel that he should have just stayed a while longer. My dad died at the age of 70 few weeks from his 71st birthday. Some people will say he was old but to me, he was not old at all. As I write, I lie in the same position I was when I spoke with him for the last time on the phone when I got a call from him,little did I know that the call was a goodbye call. He told me to hurry and come to his house but I could not drive down to him because it was 1am in the morning and my house was a bit far from him. Early hours of the morning I received another call that he had fallen and was unconscious. He was taken to the hospital and he silently slipped into coma! There he laid on the bed, looking lifeless for four long days in coma. I watched him but I just couldn't wake him up! I even punched him when no one was looking, thinking he would just move his hand but he did not even respond. I touched his feet severally, tried tickling him but he didn't move! I then held his hand and prayed for him, I prayed for him to be well and asked God to do according to what he pleases. Deep within me, I knew he was going away but it was hard to admit, even after a year. I still dream about him almost all the time . Sometimes I wish,things were different. The day my hero finally passed on, I walked into the hospital ward and the moment I saw his sleeping position, I knew he had gone but I still ran to d doctors for help! But he had left me! My dad had left me! My hero left me without a word. My world became something else from then. Even my husband cannot understand how I felt. Only me, deep within knows how deeply hurt I am. Even after 11 months i miss him so much and wish I could turn back the hands of time! My dad was very loving and caring. The best of all dads and even if I were to choose a dad again, I will choose him over and over again!