My Mom and bestfriend
I will be 16 in two months. I lost my Mom and best friend on November 28th 2008 to pancreatic cancer. She was only 48 years old, she was my life. I was 14 it was in the beginning of my freshmen year in high school. The past couple years have been the hardest thing I’ve ever had to deal with. I started experimenting with drugs, drinking and guys because I felt so alone because I was always home alone and one brother was in the army and the other had just got kicked out by our stepdad after my mom died.
I had to stay with her husband who i hardly even knew because they had been married for only a year when she died. She was diagnosed September 11th very unexpectedly, and died two months later. I’m going to be a junior and over the past two years I’ve needed her love and advice more times then ever in my life. Its so unfortunate i had to lose her right in the beginning of high school.
Seeing her get that sick so fast scared me so badly. I'll never be the same. I’ve learned so much from this it has made me so strong. She was always joking throughout those two months, being just as loving and caring as ever. She was a beautiful and amazing person. And I know everyone would say the same.
Dealing with her death is actually getting harder as I get older because i just started to grieve recently. Seeing her have to say goodbye to her kids, her new husband, and her new life with a smile on her face was the bravest thing I’ve ever seen someone do, therefore she is absolutely my hero in every way.
She always told me the last few weeks of her life, life's too short. I love that simple statement because seeing something happen like this gives you a taste of reality. Fortunately, I am doing good in school again, I quit everything I had started doing. I have a good caring boyfriend and many loving friends, I and my guardian are getting along just fine.
I'm not saying it’s easy because it's not, but it gets better and you will survive. Just please know although going through something like this is sickening, and no one should have to go through it, you must always look at the positive side. You have become the person you are today because of everything you have learned.
I know I’ve found God, grew up a bit and changed for the better. I have become a lot more loving and caring. This has made me such a strong person, I know my Mom would be so damn proud of me. God Bless you and listen when i say it's a hard journey but you will survive. Just know this, it will definitely break you before it makes you.