My mom and dad both died now. I hurt so bad. The feelings of guilt and the feelings of "what if" . I am miserable and so lost and wish I would have done things differently when they were alive. If you read this please do the right thing every day for your parents and for your own sanity because the feelings of guilt are so overwhelming after they are gone. Don't make the same mistakes I did. I wish I could hug them tell them I love them.