My Husband, My Hero, My Everything
by Christina Clark
My Husband and I had been together 6 years when he decided to be one of the 1% of Americans that join the army during war time. He went through boot camp and we were stationed in Kansas. We had a beautiful Year in Kansas when orders for him to deploy to Afghanistan came. He left in Feb on a cold night at like 1am. We cried in the truck together holding each other so tight not wanting to let go. But time is never on our side. So now he was gone.. all the way across the world going to war. We missed each other so much. We talked and wrote every chance we got, He would go on Mission after Mission and I would be so scared but after a while its was routine for him to tell me he would call me in a couple days when they got back from the mission and In my eyes, and everyone else, my husband was the best at what he did. There was no way anything would happen to him. He was indestructible! I prayed every time that god would watch over him and bring him home to me. I knew he would come home and he did.. Chaz came home for Leave for 15 days.. we had the best time of our lives.. We were so in love and just so happy. We Spent every waking hour together us 3 me, him and our son. But the 15 days came and went and I found myself holding on to him so tight not wanting to let go when his flight to go back to Afghanistan came over the airport loud speaker. My Hero,, Back to War....2 weeks later On September 18th 2011, I was home with our son when there was a loud knock at the door..I opened the door and saw 2 Military Soldiers dressed in their blues... They didn't have to say anything... I'm an army wife, I know when they show up at your house what it means...I collapsed to the floor in a scream, NO! NO! NO! NOT MY CHAZ !! WHY! WHY! WHY.!!!!! I screamed and cried uncontrollably for days. I miss him with all my heart. My husband stepped on an enemy IED. My Husband is now in heaven and in my heart forever...but I cant move on ...The pain, the emptiness is unbearable. I still cry everyday...no smile on my face unless I'm faking it... I don't think I can live without him...the only thing that keeps me going is our son. I want him back.. I want our life back.. we had so many plans and goals for our future together. He was only 24 years old and he died for what... OUR FREEDOM?? REALLY??? He was such a great man..ambitious, determined, strong, and so caring and beautiful and he was such a proud soldier and I Will forever be Proud and Honored to be his Wife. I love you always and forever Chaz and I will never let go. I will Cherish every second of the 8 beautiful years we had together.