My husband" My Soul Mate"
I lost my husband 2yrs ago 1-30-11. We were married a few weeks shy of 20yrs, we went on 1 date" on a Wednesday and moved in together that Sunday got married a few weeks later! He was the best" God how I miss him!! In 2007 he got colon cancer and it kept spreading. 4 1/2 yrs we stay at hospitals had chemo and surgery. And in Nov 2010 he kept telling me his cancer was back but he wouldn't Go to the Dr he was tired, he said no more surgery or chemo. I will not put you through anymore or myself. His last surgery had lasted 11 hrs and to me he was never the same. My husband was a big man he was 6ft about 220pds nothing but muscle" he was a logger and he got down to about 180pds. Anyways he was in so much pain in Nov-Dec 2010 and wouldn't take anything for pain, and didnt really complain that much, we had even went fishing the day before he died. But the next day Sunday 1-30-2011 he was not the man I knew" he was mean and rude, that wasn't him at all" I tryed talking to him but he wouldn't and it all happen so fast but seem like hours!' He had a gun I fought with him got the gun I don't know how but I did, I'm 5ft weigh 102pds. Before I knew it he had another gun went out the back door and took his own life. Something this man would never do!! There is not a day minute or hour that goes by that I don't think about him. I know he's no longer in pain but I miss him so much and can't wait till the day we are together again!!!! I never knew love until I met him" and never knew hurt until I lost him.