My love of my life passed away on Nov 18 2013. Married 30 years.. I am lost...heart broken. I feel like my life died with him. I put on a brave front for my beautiful 3 adult children. I get up go to work push my way thru the day. Nights and weekends are the hardest. Some of my family and friends don't understand why I am still so upset.. I am mourning. The loss of my husband is unbearable. I feel like it's all a bad dream and I am dazed and confused. I cry myself to sleep every night and cry at the drop of a hat.. How does one survive.... I hate this. I am so sad and my pain unbearable.