My job is done
It has been a year since Roger passed away. I have been doing a little reflecting and I have decided that my job on earth is done. I raised three of my own children and a step son. And not to brag but I think I have done a pretty good job. After they left the nest it was me and my Rog. We were always together. We loved road trips. Went everywhere, All of the national parks and even Alaska. He loved to drive and I loved to ride. WE both loved to dabble with video poker and I was really lucky. He used to tease me and say that we should quit our jobs and I should gamble. But I told him once it stopped being fun I would probably start losing. So here I am! Went to the casino once and cried. Tried to drive to my sons house 8 hours away and cried. I have no big desires, Nothing i always wanted to do. I have no regrets. I am not happy -I am not sad - I just am. I am tired of people telling me I will be OK-because I won't-I just miss the love of my life and really am lost without him. So I just feel my job on earth is done and i will just wait until God realizes it too.