I lost my John on 16th january 2010 after 39 years being married, this year we would have celebrated our ruby and I just cannot believe that he is gone. We have always been together through good and bad times and had great plans for the future; the tears just won't stop falling when I am alone.
I know your pain. I lost my husband, Allan, June 25th 2008 after 25 years of marriage, It will soon be two years since he died and the pain in my heart is still there. I have two wonderful kids, my son just graduated from University and my daughter will enter her final year at University in September, it breaks my heart to think of all he is missing out on, I know they say " he is with you" and I do believe it, but I want him here to share Graduations, Wedddings and Grandchildren.
I am always looking to connect with someone who "knows your pain". Life does go on and I feel talking and helping others along the way is healing. The year after my husband died, my daughter and I went to El Salvador with Habitat for Humanity, as I feel to help is to heal; this trip was amazing in a lot of ways, helping others and giving of your time (and money) to better another less fortunate human being, also the great bonding experience shared with my daughter, and the opportunity to meet other people who are there for the same reasons you are.
One such individual also lost her husband (John) one month after my husband, we really connected and came to realize there was a John and an Allan on our build team. We have stayed friends and I recently travelled across Canada to visit with her. This is a great way to connect with others.
I also lost my John by: Sandy
On January 26, 2010, like you, I lost my husband of 44 years. He literally died in my arms from a pulmonary embolism. I am devastated. I've been with him since I was 15 and we married at 17 and 19. The grief sometimes overwhelms me and I feel I just cannot go on without him. But then reality sets in and I realize that I have no choice but to continue on in life. Fortunately, I have two wonderful sons who care enough to help me through this.
I hope you have someone who is helping you.
Your Loss by: Amanda
I am sorry for your loss. The two of you spent a lifetime together. I can only dream of having a love that stands the test of time like yours. If you ever want to talk, by all means email me. I have lost so many people and have really no support system to help with my grieving. God bless and keep you.
Amanda
DarkSynn@gmail.com
My John by: Rose
I know what you mean. I lost my husband, Anthony, on October 20, 2009, literally at my feet. He passed out and died on the spot. We were married for 38 years (39 this April) and he was my best friend. We went everywhere together, were in many of the same organizations.
I miss him terribly. I am going to bereavement groups, which helps somewhat, because I am finding out that what I feel is also shared by many others who have lost their spouses. I hope it gets better, because I am so hurting inside after nearly five months.
