My Joseph Left.

It is almost 6 months since he left. He never woke up. I was angry with him because I wanted him to help me get the garden planted. I called up to him to wake him. He did not respond. Finally, I went upstairs to see what was going on. Suddenly, my world came crashing down around me.

There lay Joe. Where I had left him to sleep in only a few hours before. He was breathing, he was even snoring, when I got up. He had the most peaceful look on his face. But he was cold. He would not wake. He is gone and I don’t know what to do without him.

We never made it to our 10th anniversary. He was my best friend and my soul mate. I loved him. I miss him. My heart is breaking. I feel lost and like I cannot function. I was so independent when we met. I never realized how much I depended upon him. I miss him.

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Nov 14, 2013
Don't be angry
by: Lawrence

Please don’t be angry at Joe, believe me he didn’t want to leave you so suddenly, without saying goodbye, he would hate to see you in such torment.
Six months is very early days in this horrible grief process, everybody on this web site is feeling your pain and overwhelming sadness because we have all been through it, we have all cried and shouted out at God for taking away the person we loved more than life itself, but it has happened, there are no happy endings, you only had ten years which doesn’t seem fair, but as I am constantly reminded as I sit in this lonely empty house with no one to talk and laugh with, life isn’t fair.
I am in the eleventh month of my own heartache at losing a beloved and cherished wife after a lifetime together; we grew up from being very young teenagers to aged pensioners and the agony of her not being here with me is devastating.
However grief has a natural time limit and the pain will recede as the months pass; you will find the tears don’t fall as often as they did, but you will still cry as something reminds you of him, a song, a couple holding hands or kissing, it happens to us all, I cried a few minutes ago when I heard “SEND IN THE CLOWNS” on the radio as it was one I used to sing and play to her, it was her favorite song.
I have no words to comfort you; I wish I had; only time will help, be patient with yourself and don’t be afraid to give way to your intense grief.
You are in all our prayers.

Nov 13, 2013
My Joseph Left.
by: Doreen UK

I am sorry for your loss of Joseph, to a sudden death. That is the worst feeling ever when you discover your loved one has died and you are filled with fear and panic and every emotion all at once. I lost my husband of 44yrs. 18 months ago to cancer and I can only still TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME. I have to live in the moment or when the next day comes. I can't look forward or make any plans. It is almost as if something has snapped inside me and I can only do life this way. It is hard going on in life on our own and having to feel the loss more and more each day. Life becomes difficult because a woman has to do all the male type of jobs. I have to pay for tradesmen to do some of the jobs my husband would have done. My husband was a carpenter and I worked with him for over 40yrs. so I am able to do many jobs I learned from him and I learned from books and I just take things slowly. It builds confidence when you are able to do some form of work and make things happen but it takes time. Try and do something good for yourself each day and this will build you up from grief and help strengthen you. When we have no one around to encourage us we have to do it for ourselves and then we find we are able to do this for others and it does raise one's self esteem and helps our grief. May God comfort you and give you His Peace.

Nov 12, 2013
I can't imagine
by: greg

My heart breaks for you.

God bless and take care.


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