My journey with grief

by Elaine
(California)

May 6th I buried my third husband......I lost my first husband after a two month battle with cancer...we were farmers and I was left with no income and five children.....my 14 year old son and my 17 year old daughter had a very hard time with their fathers death...I had no knowledge of the grieving process to help us get thru that time....

After ten years I married a widower I had known.....my sons condition worsened and he died of an overdose of his antidepressant medicine....my second husband died the next year after a two month battle with cancer......we had been married for two years.....

I hadn't planned to marry a second time and yet after ten years I married the third time to a widower I had known.....we had a good 10 years together before he died of heart failure......

Today I am exhausted and lonely and grieving for all my loses.....thanks for this opportunity to talk about this sadness....