My life changed

by Tessa
(United States)

I have the best family anyone could ask for. Would I change my life if I could...You bet ya. I lost my sister in September of 2006, when she was just 22 and I was 20. She liked to drink and had an eating disorder but that was not who she was. She was so beautiful and loved life. She was an excellent writer. If she were alive today, I am sure she would have something published. After my sister died my parents fell apart. My father started drinking more and you could just see the sparkle draining from my mothers eyes. My father went to rehab on 3/30/07, what would have been my sister's 23rd bday. He died the next couple days in rehab. We received the phone call on April 2, 2007, saying my father was dead. 7 Months after my sister. My mom didn't believe it. But it was true...Every night I pray I get a sign from them letting me know they are OK and together. I am sure my father died from a broken heart, wanting to be with my sister. Although I am happy they are together I was mad for a long period of time. My whole life changed. My mother changed. She was not the same person anymore and how could she be. I never knew how much pain she could possibly be in until I had a daughter of my own. I couldn't image what she is going through. My father was the religious one who would answer my questions about god. Now that he is gone I have a hard time believing in God. Now I am very family orientated. I am constantly around my mother, fearing I may loose her at any time. I know it has taken a toll on some of my relationships, but until you have been in my shoes, dont judge.

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