My little fighter

by Pamela
(Brooklyn, NY, USA)

Jojo and his keys

Jojo and his keys

My son was born premature at 24 weeks. His name was Jonah Thomas Jackson. He was born January 23, 2012. By five months his was trying to crawl. The doctors were amazed. He survived 6 months and just when it was time to come home, he passed away. I'm still waiting for the autopsy. It's hard not knowing his cause of death. When he was put on the ventilator I had to decide to turn off the machines. I let Jonah die in my arms. It hurts so bad because he was doing so well. Sometimes I just cry no matter where I am. Sometimes this pain eats me up. I had him cremated and I still have his ashes. I haven't even gone through his things. I ask why everyday. What I don't understand is why he made it to the point of coming home to just leave me. I just continue to pray for strength. Sometimes I still smell him and wake up crying.

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Aug 31, 2012
My little fighter
by: Doreen U.K.

Pamela I am so sorry for your loss of your new little baby. Life makes no sense when we lose a loved one. Anymore than we can understand why some people are healed and others die. It takes too much energy and sorrow trying to understand the death of someone so young. Someone who made an entrance into the world and was not given a chance to live. Only God holds the answers. I hope that God will bring you strong measures of Healing every day and Comfort that will ease your sorrow from the tears you shed every day. May Peace find you in God's arms. And Comfort wrap its embrace around you always!.

Aug 31, 2012
Heaven is for Real
by: Anonymous

Perhaps he made it home so he knows where to find his Momma when he looks down from Heaven. Have you read the book, "Heaven is for Real"? Rest assured, Jesus is taking excellent care of your baby.

Aug 31, 2012
Sorry about your loss
by: Divya

Am so sorry about your loss
Please don't worry. This is the pain we come across and no one's condolences help you at all. Coz I lost my healthy 5 yr old in just 1 day fever. Surprisingly, I returned to my work just in a month after my son's death (he passed away 6 july 2012).
I am trying to do something and am in confused state. Started reading so many articles regarding what happens after death...
Please try to engage yourself into something else and there's no answer for our questions like, 'Why this happened to ME', 'Why to my little one'...
Still am trying to find and nothing happening
Be strong as we HAVE to Live until our job is completed. Thats what am doing now trying hard to live my rest of life and one day I can reach my sweet son.
Pray for strength. This is what we can do at this time.

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