My little momma

I am truly devestated. As I sit and write this I am in shock and disbelief. From the time of diagnosis to her time of death I had 10 days with this wonderful woman.
My confidant, my shopping partner, my friend.
She could work circles around her kids and grandkids until 2008 when she slowed down due to kidney disease but, we managed this and she just went on doing all the things she did.
Then on Oct 19 we got the news of Stage IV lung cancer. What???????? She had never smoked in her life. She made the decision to have nothing done after her doctors told her she had 4-6 months to live wihout any treatment but with treatment they HOPEFULLY could double the prognosis. They explained she would get very sick and not be able to eat and if she did she probably would not be able to keep it down, she would get sores in her mouth and nose and would lose her hair. At which time she informed them she did not feel sick so why would she make herself sick just to live 6 more months.
We lost my little momma Oct 29, 10 days after her diagnosis. I do not know why. I have tell myself God did not want her to suffer.
We lay this wonderful person to rest day after tomorrow in the cemetary up on the hill above her parents.

She was with me when I took my first breath and I was with her when she took her last.

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Nov 03, 2012
Sending my love to you
by: Yonah

My mom died October 14 after a long illness. I was asleep holding her hand when she died, I was with her for the last 12 days of her life. It touched me that you said you were with her when she breathed her last and she was was with you when you breathed your first. Me too. My birthday is in a few weeks and I'll be thinking of her.

Nov 01, 2012
I want to say sometime.....
by: Ella

but the tears won't let me. My "little momma" that what I called her passed June 8, 2012. Let's us pray for each other......

Nov 01, 2012
My little momma
by: Doreen U.K.

I am sorry for your loss of myou momma. What a shock it has been for you all as a family.
I will never forget March 28th 2009. My husband and I went to the hospital for an appointment which led to a scan, then a biopsy and then the terrible news "You have an incurable,inoperable,aggressive lung cancer caused by working with asbestos. My husband as a young 20's father worked for his family in an industry where he had to cut asbestos as a carpenter. This disease is deadly and takes 40-60yrs. to develop. It was spot on for 40yrs. My husband had to come out of work and have Chemotherapy followed by Radiotherapy, and then another round of Chemotherapy. Steve died a slow death over 3yrs. I nursed him to the end and watched the man I loved for 44yrs. slowly slip away into DEATH. He wanted to live. He did not want to die. It has been a very painful grief. I lost my husband 6 months ago. He died 5th May 2012. I will never get over this death. The worst Pain ever of losing a loved one. Looking back I wish my husband did not have chemotherapy and radiotherapy. It gave him a more painfull death with all the side effects of these drugs. Steve really suffered PAIN. It was the worst and painful 3yrs39days I have ever spent. I know what you are going through. But sad because your mother never smoked. Many people who did not smoke died of lung cancer. My husband inhaled a deadly substance from his employment. We don't know what is in the atmosphere that we are breathing in. We just live in HOPE that we will be O.K. Life can be very CRUEL. Our loved ones are taken from us and we HURT so bad it makes life feel as if it is over for us. How can we go on?

Oct 31, 2012
I understand
by: Anonymous

Your loss sounds so similar to mine. My mom and I did everything together. I miss her so much. She was my best friend. I was with her when she died also. It has been 3 months and I still cry everyday. I don't know what to say to make you feel less alone. I pray that you have a relationship with Jesus. I also pray for you.

Oct 31, 2012
by: Ruth M

My condolences. What a sweet sentiment to a woman who obviously was so beloved by her children. God Bless you and her, yes God gave her special treatment. Thank you Lord.

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