My Little Sister
6 months ago my 28 year old sister died of a massive heart attack. She had just had her first baby 2 months before she died. She had signed up to be an organ donor and when they started running tests they found that she had Stage 4 liver cancer. None of us knew! Her heart attack was caused by a blood clot in her lung. She had very healthy habits, ate right, didn't smoke, barely ever drank, exercised, and took such good care of herself. I am only 2 years older than her. I am still living in shock. My parents have been devastated. My sister's husband is now dating one of her friends. He is my age. I understand that people do need to move on in their own ways, but I am upset also. It almost feels disrespectful towards my sister that he would find someone else after 6 months. I still feel so lost. Someone took my heart and ripped a gigantic hole in it. I have never felt pain like this before and am not finding much comfort in anything these days. My husband tries to comfort me and succeeds to some degree. I can't stand being at work. I have become so irritable. I just wish I could crawl in a dark, warm hole and sleep for the next couple of years until the pain dulls.