by Jennifer Davies
Okay so I'm a 14 year old girl and on December 8th, 2011 my dad died. He died of a drug overdose in hospital and he told me just before he died that he absolutely hated me and I ruined his life. Despite his hatrid towwards me, I still miss him like crazy. Then, on January 28th, 2012 my cousin George commited suicide by hanging himself. He didn't tell anyone why and I was so shocked by this because we were so close! We'd tell each other everything! Then, on February 15th, my uncles fiancee hung herself and even though she wasn't technically part of the family, we all treated her as if she was. She left a note saying she couldn't cope with the death of her Grandfather (who I didn't know) so she killed herself. Then on April 3rd, 2012, my best friend Callum killed himself. He stabbed himself and said that he hated life and that I was the only person he had! His parents were abusive and he had no family to care for him so I took care of him loads (even though he was 3 years older than me) he was my everything and I was his everything. I honestly believe that I had been there, I could've stopped him so I kind of blame myself in that respect. So anyway, 4 people who were/are really close to me have died in the space of 6months and these days I'm just waiting for another person to die- I'm almost expecting another death! It hurts so bad and has had an effect on my performance in school, I have exams this week and can't concentrate on revising because all I can think about is how they all died...