My Love Francis P. Holt

by Hope M Holt
(Tappahannock VA)

My Love,

Have you found your way as I have? Is it any less of a struggle up in heaven? I assume you lead the life you want at any given moment going from one paradise to another. Do you hang out with Larry, your mom and dad? Do you see my mom and dad? I can't help but wonder not having been to heaven myself. Do you continue to help me here on earth acting as my guardian angel when the paths seem so difficult?

Boo and I are o.k we have grown in ways I did not think possible when you first left. I remember when you first died how I would give anything for one last hug, one last kiss, and on and on the list goes of things I miss. I'm sorry that I did not know that you weren't coming back. I would have done things so differently.

I have no regrets, none whatsoever. I know that losing you only meant that we had each other for what seemed a short time on earth. I need something but I don't know what it is. So I continue to try to grow from within and become the best that I can be. You brought out the very best in me and now I try to bring out the very best in our son.

Our children are flourishing as they grow older leading their own lives taking their own paths. And I can not help thinking that you had a lot to do with that. They are hard workers and love just as passionately as you do family being number one priority.

So I try to teach the youngest one now 13 all the morals that you and I once shared. Try to get him to see that everyday is a new beginning regardless of how miserable the day before might have been.

It is 2 years ago today that you left and though my heart still misses you terribly I know that we all have a path and I am trying to walk that path as best as I can.

Your Love
for all of eternity...
Hope