My Love Francis P. Holt

by Hope M Holt
(Tappahannock VA)

Our Love Together for all of eternity

Our Love Together for all of eternity

My Love,

Have you found your way as I have? Is it any less of a struggle up in heaven? I assume you lead the life you want at any given moment going from one paradise to another. Do you hang out with Larry, your mom and dad? Do you see my mom and dad? I can't help but wonder not having been to heaven myself. Do you continue to help me here on earth acting as my guardian angel when the paths seem so difficult?

Boo and I are o.k we have grown in ways I did not think possible when you first left. I remember when you first died how I would give anything for one last hug, one last kiss, and on and on the list goes of things I miss. I'm sorry that I did not know that you weren't coming back. I would have done things so differently.

I have no regrets, none whatsoever. I know that losing you only meant that we had each other for what seemed a short time on earth. I need something but I don't know what it is. So I continue to try to grow from within and become the best that I can be. You brought out the very best in me and now I try to bring out the very best in our son.

Our children are flourishing as they grow older leading their own lives taking their own paths. And I can not help thinking that you had a lot to do with that. They are hard workers and love just as passionately as you do family being number one priority.

So I try to teach the youngest one now 13 all the morals that you and I once shared. Try to get him to see that everyday is a new beginning regardless of how miserable the day before might have been.

It is 2 years ago today that you left and though my heart still misses you terribly I know that we all have a path and I am trying to walk that path as best as I can.

Your Love
for all of eternity...

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Dec 08, 2011
Hang In There
by: TrishJ

I love it that you said you are teaching your son morals. So many parents aren't these days. My 12 year old grandson tells me everything ~ I'm glad he feels comfortable and trusts me. Some of the things he tells me. Oh Lord!! I have to just bite my tongue. It's hard enough raising a teenager with both parents these days. I think you are on the right path and doing a great job.
Stay strong. Your post was beautiful, as always. I'm pulling for you and your son. Paul is watching from above. Trust....he is.
A wonderful holiday season to you and your family (as wonderful as it can be).

Dec 07, 2011
Your love
by: Judy


This is so beautiful. Paul is smiling in heaven.


Dec 06, 2011
Your Love
by: M Mack


Your letter was truly beautiful and I'm sure Paul would love to manifest answers. Maybe he already has so keep your eyes and ears open! If you think it's a reply.....then it is. Our loves do check in on us and are there when we need them most. I understand they can be anywhere they want and at anytime.

Be proud of yourself for learning how to deal with what God sent you. You have done a wonderful job and made a huge impact on so many in need of a sympathetic ear, broken heart and me. Thanks for the update and writing. Sending hugs and prayers for continued comfort.

Dec 06, 2011
How Beautiful
by: Anonymous


I just had to tell you that I've never read a more beautiful, touching memorial as the one you wrote to your beloved Francis.

I lost my husband, soulmate, lover and best friend suddenly just 4 short months ago. I hope to someday be able to look at this the way you do.

I'm sure you had your dark days, hours, minutes. Maybe you can share your secret of how you reached the place that you have, as you have become my inspiration.

Thank you,


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