by RL Rounds
Felicia, my daughter whom I nicknamed "Love" the second she was born gave birth to identical twin girls on 10/27/12. Love died the next day. (Long story but she kept bleeding & they couldn't stop it, organs began to fail, emergency hysterectomy to try & stop it, organs began to fail...). I cannot live without her. I have 3 grandchildren, an almost 7 (sept)year old grandson and 2 8 month old baby girls, Felicia
(after her mom) & Destiny (the name Love had chosen for her girl). We didn't know it was twins. Identical twins (my mom & aunt are identical, & I lost identical twin boys) run in our family. But little destiny was Behind (rather than beside) baby Felicia & was breech. Because of her positioning in the womb (bent placenta) she didn't receive the nutrients so lil' Desi has some medical issues. They and my son-in-law all live with me. They do bring me much joy but also the reminder that my Love is gone. (tears - do they Ever stop???) I was looking for a Chat room when I found this. I need to talk to people who have been through this. I feel like it's going to kill me, the grief. I know she's in heaven, but I can't talk to her. We had Never lived apart. I miss her soo much. I NEED to talk to her & know I can't.
I'm beyond broken.