My Love

I lost my mom on Feb 1 2012. I deel so sick and hurt. I feel horribe for my poor dad who looks so lost without her. The house is so quiet and cold. She was 59 and we buried her on her birthday on Feb 10th 2012. Today I feel lost. Yesterday I was angry and bitter. I am upset that God allowed her to pass away in such a painful way after having a blood clot in her lung after surgery several weeks ago. My siblings are coping but I am just so hurt. I want my mommy back and I know she is gone. All i can think right now is that every day is a day closer to seeing her. I have support but I just can't look at the good or positive right now. She was beautiful, sweet, warm, funny, and caring. She had a beautiful smile and loved to love people. I miss her hard. There is no joy in my heart right now. What do I do? I am just so sick.

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Feb 28, 2012
my mum died 4 years ago
by: Anonymous

I know the pain you are feeling I was 17 when my mum died 4 years ago and that is pain that will ease over time. I still think about her every day, Im upset when there are things that happen that i wish i could talk to her about and Im sad for the things she is missing out on but your mum will always be with you. I'm not a religious person but I know my mum is looking out of me and she lives on in my heart. Its important to keep your mums memory alive in your family - share storys about her with your siblings and with your dad, that way she will always live on. Live the life she would have been proud of, and take every day as it comes. I know this is hard to understand now but you will be a stronger person having come out of this

Goodluck beautiful

Feb 20, 2012
Missing Mom and Dad
by: Anonymous

I lost my beautiful mom on February 11, 2012. She was in the later stages of Alzheimer's and had broken her hip the previous Monday. We put her on comfort care and she didn't last long at all. I fed her a bowel of chocolate ice cream on Thursday night and she said "I love you so much." Those were really her last intelligble words to me and I cherish them. I held her and talked to her, and she passed at 9:00 AM, Saturday, February 11, 2012. I miss her so much and my Dad too. He had a massive stroke and passed away on November 24, 2011. He was 95, she had just turned 96. I had cared for them in my home for the last 3 years (with the help of our wonderful caregivers). The house is very lonely and quiet now.

Feb 17, 2012
last comment
by: Anonymous

Thank yu everyone for your response. Does anyone now how to send a private message to a commentator?

Feb 17, 2012
re:my love
by: Anonymous

hi from my mum died on the 27th of september 2011 not even 6 months to this day time has stood still..i somtimes come on this site to read about other people losings their mum,s and they can uderstand what ive lost...i read your story,thank mum went into hospital for a hip replacement she had never had an operation before and was very very ascared to go in for this operation..she kept asking me what if i dont wake up form this anastedic...but what if luv,but what if??.i assured her she would be ok and that she was going to be 1 million percent aswell as the rest of my family did and also her we friends.she had just turned 63 but you would never think it she was beautifulfull of beams i would say 2 her lol.mum was 5 days in hospital her operation was 1 of the best the doctors had seen,on the 5th day my mummy died from a blood clot in her lung...she was neglected by her aftercare team in hospital.she was the most kindest caring loving and fun mother i could ever have been giving..a truly honest kind person with a heart of pure gold..a lady im sure you feel the same about your mum aswell,im so so sorry for your loss and i write this not beliving its my mummy im talking total shock and completly lost!! GOD ONLY TAKES THE BEST X0X0X0X0X0X0X0X0

Feb 14, 2012
by: Meimei

We feel n say the same : I want my mummy back but she cannot be back.... She went on the trip on 23 Dec 2011... Till now, my tears flow can be controlled, but my fever will not go away.... cos the pain in the heart continues.... Don't know when will she come n bring me to her....

Feb 13, 2012
so sorry for your loss
by: Anonymous

I am so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a very special woman. And you... A very special daughter. Keep on keeping on... Cry it out.. and eventually, you will suprise yourself and have a day where you do not cry. Give yourself time to grieve.....

Feb 13, 2012
by: Anonymous

Hi I'm sorry for your loss, I too lost someone very special, my grandson he would of been 3 on feb 2. I understand your pain, the whys, and questions for god. I have always told my children if I pass away today do not cry for me, I do not want my children unhappy and to worry about me, I want them to remember me and be happy. I'm sure your mom would want you to be happy too and not give up on life. As for your dad, he has to grieve in his own way, just be there for him and talk about your mom. I wish there were words I could say to take away your pain but, there is not. Prayers to you.

Feb 13, 2012
I know what you're going through
by: Tim

I know what you're going through being angry at God and the dad passed on 12/16/11 and I still am angry. I remember meeting with the priest the day after he passed and tell the priest that I was angry...he asked me why and I told him beacause my dad should be here. His response was to "work on thankfulness" for having a dad like him in my life. I still get angry, not only at God, but also at my dad for leaving me. The only thing I can offer is try to work towards thankfulness....

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