I lost my mom on Feb 1 2012. I deel so sick and hurt. I feel horribe for my poor dad who looks so lost without her. The house is so quiet and cold. She was 59 and we buried her on her birthday on Feb 10th 2012. Today I feel lost. Yesterday I was angry and bitter. I am upset that God allowed her to pass away in such a painful way after having a blood clot in her lung after surgery several weeks ago. My siblings are coping but I am just so hurt. I want my mommy back and I know she is gone. All i can think right now is that every day is a day closer to seeing her. I have support but I just can't look at the good or positive right now. She was beautiful, sweet, warm, funny, and caring. She had a beautiful smile and loved to love people. I miss her hard. There is no joy in my heart right now. What do I do? I am just so sick.