I just lost my husband(1/21/13)very suddenly from a massive heart attack. He had been more tired than usual lately and complained of sore legs, but we just thought it was from our physically demanding job. One day he was putting new tires on our van and the next he was gone, just gone... I tried to save him, but it wasn't enough.
We have been married for 41 yrs, would be 42 this Feb 26,2013. He was 62 & I'm 60. We were high school sweethearts, I've known him since I was 15. We worked together almost daily for the last 7 yrs. We had our good times, our bad times, our lean times, but always stuck together through thick and thin, in it together...
I never got to say goodby, tell him how much I loved him, how very much he meant to me and how sorry I was for all the times I was crabby, stubborn & selfish, how I left life get in the way, how much I truely appreciated everything he had done for me, all the happy times we shared. Now he's gone...
I never realized just how much I would miss him. Jeez I miss his arms around me, his rough hand in mine, his touch, his smell, his laugh. I'd give anything right now to have him in the kitchen making a mess for me instead of complaining about it.
I know I have to get out of this funk I'm in, other people have it worse or just as bad, but I just don't know how or even have the energy to do it,
What am I goimg to do??? We never planned on this happening, never planned for the furture always figured we had lots of time. And to top it off I was in my first accident, looked both ways before entering road way and smash. I wonder when I should just throw my hands up and say ENOUGH I GIVE UP!!!