My lovely husband died of cancer, 2 weeks after being diagnosed

by Lesley
(UK)

My husband and I met when I was just 17 and he 24. I am now 46. We had just returned from seeing our son and his wife in America. We had only been home 2 weeks, when he suddenly collapsed at home.

At first we were told he had a severe chest infection. Over the following 5 weeks he was discharged from hospital 3 times. The last time he was discharged he was told he had lymphoma and would need chemo, but had an 80% chance of full recovery. He started his chemo on September 24th, 2 weeks after he was diagnosed, and he died 4 hours later.

I did not even have chance to get used to the idea that he was ill, never mind that he could die. He meant everything to me. He was my husband, best friend and lover. I have never lived alone and feel totally lost and frightened of life without him.

We have two great children, both married. My daughter is expecting our first grandchild in Jan 2010. He was so looking forward to being a grandad. Life is so cruel.

I can't believe there will be a time when I will feel whole and happy again.