My Loving Big Brother Richard June 12, 1946 - May 28, 2010
I miss you something awful. The pain of losing you hurts so, so much. Sometimes, I'm ok, and then the grief just overtakes me. Even though we didn't see each other often, I still miss you so much.
That dreaded pancreatic cancer took you away from us so fast. You'd been suffering from some kind of pain in your legs for a long time. There were test results in your apartment to prove that something had been wrong. Still those tests were all negative. How? When your body was riddled with cancer, could all tests be negative for cancer?
Because you were never a complainer, you didn't even want your loving lady Sadie to the family that you were suffering and needed help until it got too much for you two to bear alone.
You had a liver biopsy on April 7th, and during that week, due to the tumors on your spine, you lost your ability to walk and was hospitalized on April 13th. You left the hospital and went to a nursing home on April 29th and you passed away on May 28th.
I grew to know so much more about you from March through May than I did in all of my 60 years. I'm so grateful to have spent those last few hours with you on Thursday, when you'd look deeply into my eyes as we held hands. You passed away peacefully in your sleep Friday morning at 4:05AM. I miss you and will love you forever. I'll always remember and do what you'd say to me, "take care of yourself".
Love ya, Lou.....