My loving dad died and i can stand it

by byron

My father was a loving man, old fashion, buy very kind, he died October 23 2012, i can't stand the pain, i am so sad and i can't sleep, i wander at night, and during the day i do my best for my mother and brothers, but i am loosing my mind.

cancer took him away from me, and i am so angry because he deserved better, he work since he has 14, i want him to enjoy the life more, i feel like i don't gave him enough love, time, it wasn't enough at all.

i was a drug addict for a few years, and this causing a lot of pain, i worked for years after that so he forgive me, i paid my debt, kept my house, safe my work, and now i am doing really fine, but i was so close to be much better and now he is gone and he can not see it.

i am so lonely without his smile and kind words, i think i will go crazy.

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Nov 29, 2012
by: daddy's girl

I totally understand, I lost my father/best friend on June 2, 2012 suddenly from kidney failure, Then lost his mother June 26 from a horrible car accident. There is not a day goes by I don't think of him at least half of the day.Trying to stay strong for my mom is the hardest.I do little things everyday like listen to his messages on the phone, he was cremated so I put him in a necklace so I can take him with me everywhere.The hurt or pain does not go away I know the Holidays are going to be rough. Just do something special to keep his memory alive. watch for signals and believe them when you see them, stay strong as a family.

Nov 29, 2012
My loving dad died and I can't stand it
by: Doreen U.K.

Byron I am sorry for your loss of your dad to cancer. I lost my husband of 44yrs. to cancer 6 months ago.
Cancer is a destructive disease to the body and to families left behind to pick up the pieces of a lost, wasted, empty life now without our loved ones around us to help continue our living.
Byron I am a mother with 3 Adult children and parents are sad when their children make a choice to live with drugs or anything that can harm them. the Fear of losing their child they love. But parents almost always FORGIVE their children for their failures and mistakes.
The sad fact is your father will not see how you have turned your life around and making a success now. My husband won't see this either for us and his family. This is sad for all of us who have lost our loved ones.
But be PROUD of who you are and what you have done to make your life better. KEEP IT UP!!. Most people go off the rails at some time in their life for whatever reason. Even if your dad is not able to see you now. Keep improving your life and HONOUR HIM by living your life well .

Nov 29, 2012
by: Eba

Dear Biron ,so so sorry for the loss of your father,believe me your dad loves you no matter what coz as you said he was a nice loving father,am sooooo happy coz you get off your addiction which is very important for u ,your future and your family as well, Please take care of you self ,remember many people do love you

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