My loving dad died and i can stand it
My father was a loving man, old fashion, buy very kind, he died October 23 2012, i can't stand the pain, i am so sad and i can't sleep, i wander at night, and during the day i do my best for my mother and brothers, but i am loosing my mind.
cancer took him away from me, and i am so angry because he deserved better, he work since he has 14, i want him to enjoy the life more, i feel like i don't gave him enough love, time, it wasn't enough at all.
i was a drug addict for a few years, and this causing a lot of pain, i worked for years after that so he forgive me, i paid my debt, kept my house, safe my work, and now i am doing really fine, but i was so close to be much better and now he is gone and he can not see it.
i am so lonely without his smile and kind words, i think i will go crazy.