My Loving Father
Hello.... I lost my Dad a few years ago. Strangely enough, I did not grief for him because other people in my life at the time did not mind he died. In any event, I was in a bad marriage and was too occupied to really confront my feeling for my deceased father. This year was a strange year. I started to have vivid dreams of my father and visions of him too. He would come to me and give me certain messages. He told me to move back to New Jersey and leave Florida. He told me other things, to help in certain situations. Every time, I study for Physics, I feel him very close to me. My father was a mechanical engineer and he was a genius. He taught me all the math's in high school and in college. When I study Physics, I have these bad migraine headaches that are really bad.
My past relationship with my father was wonderful. We also became very close after I graduated from College. We would have long walks in the park or any where else. He gave me such great advice. Now, I don't have that anymore. I miss him deeply. When I mediate, I also feel his energy and then I feel his guidance sometimes.
Back to the dreams, when I wake up after the dreams I have of my father. I feel horrible. It's even sometimes very painful. I cry and then the crying just doesn't stop. I hope I get better. I need to strong for my family.
If anyone, has the same experience, please let me know. I am joining a grief/loss group soon.