my mini me angel jen died oct. 10, 2011

by vicki moroney
(davenport, ia. u.s.)

when I got home, the house was dark. jenni's jeep was in the drive, so I knew she was home. I called her name-nothing. I opened the basement door and called her name-nothing. her dog walked over. it was so still and deathly quiet except for her radio which was on always. I called her name three times as I went down the steps, each time more frantic. as I came off the last step and turned towards her bed, she lay there, her arms bent upwards at the elbows. I knew she was gone, but I fought the fact. I grabbed her. she was cold. I tried to give cpr. I fought so hard to call 911 and it was hard. I was screaming and crying, called her name.... they took my baby out in a body bag. I didn't want them to take her away. there must be an autopsy because she was only 39. my world was destroyed as I lost one of my babies.

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Feb 20, 2012
Yoir not alone
by: Mary

Vicki, i am truly sorry for your loss. My 19 year old passed away in her bed, her husband tound her. Your title made me chuckle, Marissa was my mini me. No matter how much they don't to be.

Feb 15, 2012
So Sorry
by: carol,seans mom

Vicki, I am so sorry about your daughter. I lost my 24 year old son in his bed also on November 15,2011. Well, It was November 13th that we could not wake him but we tried to see if we could save him for the next 42 hours or so , so legally he died on the fifteenth but I lost him on the thirteenth. There is no pain worse. Take one day at a time. The world has become a very different place.

Feb 14, 2012
Dear Vicki
by: Anonymous

Dear Vicki-
Your dear child was 39, mine was 38. We had them for a long
time. I think the longer we've had them, the more difficult
it is to lose them. Fortunately, I didn't have to be the one who
found him dead. Don't know, but think, that would have been
much worse. It's all bad. No matter how you look at it. Actually,
after he died, my husband and I couldn't even fathom going
to his house to see where he had died - was too painful.
It's been 2+ yrs for us. The first year was total hell. Me crying
every day. Second year was better - by better, just not crying
all the time. Holidays are horrid, as is his B-day, Xmas, and
any other anniversary. We saw a therapist the first month.
Have just started seeing one again in the past few weeks. Really,
this helps, if affordable. It's expensive, but - mental health is
as important as physical health. My son died of a massive heart
attack - was not drug related. Coroner said it must be genetic.
He was under serious stress - so I believe that did it for him.
I see you live in Aspen. I have a sister who lives there and we
visit time to time. We live in Santa Fe.
Do you have a compassionate friends group there? Maybe you
should check that org. out.
Much Love and
good wishes to you.

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