My Missing Valentine
It's been a hard day at work with Valentine's day coming tomorrow. I see people at the store buying for loved ones. Kids getting shirts and ties and asking do you have Valentine's ties? my heart breaking each time. Even though Billy didn't wear a "Shirt and Tie" he did on occasion, like our friends daughter's wedding as you can see by the picture posted above.
I had a copy made and now wear around my neck, close to my heart to hole in my hand, especially when I'm feeling down.
Boy is he handsome. Of course it's me saying it so that's as they say is that. I can say those things.
Things, things, things, that's all they are now. Memories I look at and wish for time and time again but will never have.
Driving home from work all you see are people selling stuff for Valentine's day on the streets and corners. I tried not to look.
Good luck with that one huh?
Lately I've been listening to the Elvis Presley station on Sirius radio, he was our favorite entertainer. They both have the same straight nose, and that secret smile. I start thinking and I end up crying my way home. But I can sing his songs like we use to when we were together in the car and I can remember, memories...
Once in the house I notice on the table are yellow roses my brother got for his wife for Valentine's Day. OK tears here we go again.
I miss being the wife, the cards the notes and flowers and on occasion Nascar laps.
Tomorrow I'm lucky to those at work. I have the day off. Oh yes lucky me.... I get Valentine's day off. All I want to do is pull the covers over my head and tell the world to go away.
I miss him so much at times it feels like my heart is breaking into a million pieces, never to be hole again.
I can never put into words the feelings my heart feels. I just know I'm broken, never to feel, always missing him again until I'm with him once more.
So I will as always,
1 step, 1 breath at a time :(