My mom died of suicide
(San Francisco, CA)
My mom died of suicide a few years ago. Even though it was a few years ago it hurts worse now that I have my own kids. Thank god I didn't didnt find her. But there is so many unanswered questions. Like why? Why couldn't she get help or why couldn't she talk to someone or even say goodbye to me?? I wonder what she was thinking? I hate how she passed her horrible depression onto to me, but I refuse to do to my kids what she did to me.
I wish my kids had a grandma. I wish I could call her for advice. I wish I could have mother daughter squabbles with her. I hate growing up motherless and I wish she never was in that much pain to do what she did.