My Mom Just Passed
On Monday the 20th I saw my 91 year old Mother take her lasting gulps of breath and watched the heart machine flat line to zero. I am 54 years old and my father passed in '85. I noticed it affected my relationships with the opposite sex gravitating towards the wrong relationships. I can preach to choir that everyone should grieve properly and read all the books on how to do it. Now I find myself floundering on how to do it myself. I feel like a part of my womanhood has died loosing my Mom. I suddenly feel much older now that she is gone.
I have no children just a husband and most the people I work around are men.
She was quite a warrior through all the torments that life dished out to her. She was quick to anger but quick to love. Living on edge most her adult life.
I will try to recreate my new journey as it will be a whole new life on how to act. I have been her patient advocate since her health started to decline 2006. Each year we thought she would never make it to see the next.