My mom, my best friend, I love you
My mom and I spent everyday together, we spoke on the phone at least 8x a day. My mom passed jan. 30 , 2012. On her moms birthday. It was very unexpected. She was diagnosed with emphysema . She didn't let us know how bad she was. After she died is when I found out about copd. The day before she died, she seemed a little off. She wasn't feeling well. She laid down in my daughters room. That night was my nephews birthday party. She wasn't going to go. She then did decide to go. She ate, and had a few laughs. I wanted to talk to her, but someone at the table wouldn't stop talking. So I really never did have a conversation with her that night. The next morning, my sister said she was acting odd. I didn't believe my sister. I spoke to my mom, she seemed fine. She told me to go take my son to see gravedigger. (so I did) through half the show I called my brother, my sister, no answer. My sis In law said they went to the hospital. So I raced out there. My mom had phenomnia. They induced her in a coma to get rid of it. But during the night she got Mrsa. The next morning she was in icu. Dying. My sister, me, my 2 brothers. And my moms friends were there telling her to go. It's time. I can't express how this is the hardest thing in my life I have to go through. Not only losing my mom, but what a horrible daughter I feel like. I feel I could've been there more for her. She was a big smoker. We got used to her gasping for air from the car to In The house. I'm so mad at my self. I miss her sooooo much. I can't explain how it feels like a hole is in my heart. Or a piece of me was ripped right from me. It dosen't seem to get better. It gets harder.i know my kids need me, but the half of me can't wait to be reunited with her. One day. After my job here is done.