My mom, my best friend, my mentor, my Goddess
My mom passed away on August 20th,2012 suddenly with a heart attack at the age of 68 in India. I was in USA, I called her to go on video chat(oovoo). My dad said, they are going to doctor for a check up. I sensed worry in his voice, but he didn't tell me exactly. After that I got worried and called my brothers who were also away and told them there is something going on and he is not telling us. Later after few hours, I came to know that the family doctor asked to take her to emergency as she must have had a heart attack. They were taking her to the operation theater to do angiography at the door she collapsed and never came back. They thought, she got scarred of the surgery. I feel so guilty to be so far away and did not give her courage. They kept the body for me, my heart shattered to see her in the cold glass box. I felt that I made her suffer after death also. I feel that I did not help my mom, she was always very kind and giving. They did not know it was a heart attack, the previous night she had nausea and felt week, they thought it was indigestion. The loss is unbearable, I keep thinking if they would have known it was a heart attack and have taken her directly to the emergency she would have survived. I came back to US, my dad moved in with my brother. Every day I cry, I miss her so much, I can't sleep in the night.