My mom! my best friend! my soul! my life! my everythin! Cant seem to live without herrr :(
by Amrita Arora
(New Delhi, India)
My mom passed away on 23rd July, 2012 due to heart attack. She was only 63 years old. I wasn't with her when she died. She went to visit holy temple and while her way back suddenly she collapsed. When all this happened she was travelling in a bus with my dad. I got a call from someone saying that they are taking her to a hospital. I lost my senses when I heard this. I could walk to the hospital where they took her. My dad lost his senses when he saw all this happening to her. Nobody performed CPR on her when this happened and it took almost 20mins for the bus to reach the hospital where they pronounced her dead. Since then I haven't been able to move on in my life. I regret that I wasn't with her at that time when she needed me the most. I could have performed CPR on her and she would have been alive today. I cry all the time. I'm still in deep shock. I cannot recover. Its a very big loss for me. I was about to get married in January 2013. She was the only person who was so happy and excited about it. That was her only wish to see me getting married. Now, she would not be able to see me in my wedding dress. I feel like dying. I'm 27 and i still used to sleep with her holding hands together. I never used to sleep without her when she was alive and I could not sleep for more then 1 week when she died. She used to do every little thing for me till now. She gave me everything from unconditional love to education and whatever i needed in life I blame myself for her death. I didnt do anything for her even when she was alive. I have been an irresponsible kid. I miss her so much all the time and every little thing about her. She never used to leave me alone. She wanted be with me all the time. Now, I dont have her. I get pains in my heart. I do not know how would I be able to survive without her.