My Mom, My Best Friend

by SHARON
(KENTUCKY)

MY LOVING MOTHER

MY LOVING MOTHER

I LOST MY MOM YESTERDAY, OCT 26, 2011. MY HEART IS BROKEN. SHE HAD THE SIGNS OF THE ONSET OF ALZHEIMER'S AND HAD BEEN HAVING AIDS COME IN TO HELP HER. MOST OF THE TIME THEY DID NOTHING BUT WATCH TV, AND PLAY ON THEIR PC SO, WE, HER KIDS THOUGHT IT BEST THAT MAYBE WE SHOULD TAKE TURNS OURSELVES STAYING WITH HER. SHE STILL LIVED IN THE FAMILY HOME. A 14 ROOM HOUSE SO, THERE WAS PLENTY OF ROOM. ONLY 3 OUT OF 8 SIBLINGS DID IT AND ONE ONLY LASTED 3 DAYS. SEPTEMBER WAS MY TIME TO BE WITH HER. HAVING NO CHILDREN AND BEING DIVORCED MOM AND I WERE GREAT TOGETHER. SHE WOULD BE WAITING FOR ME TO COME HOME FROM WORK SO I COULD TAKE HER FOR A RIDE AND SHOPPING. EVEN THOUGH I WAS SO TIRED I NEVER WOULD TELL HER NO. JUST SITTING WITH HER AND WATCHING TV AND LAUGHING, KISSING HER WHEN I WENT TO WORK. SHE MADE ME FEEL YOUNG AT HEART AGAIN.
MY MOM WAS ALWAYS THE GREATEST COOK BUT SHE COULDN'T DO IT ANYMORE. IT MADE ME FEEL SO GOOD TO DO THOSE THINGS FOR HER. JUST AS SHE HAD DONE FOR ME IN MY YOUNGER YEARS.... IT'S ONLY BEEN A DAY SINCE SHE DIED MY EYES HAVEN'T BEEN DRY. MY HEART IS BROKEN. I'M OVERWHELMED WITH GRIEF, JUST AS I WAS WHEN MY DAD PAST. FOR A STRAIGHT YEAR I CRIED. AT HOME, WORK, THE GRAVE SITE. I LOST A RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE OF IT AND A JOB. IT TOOK ME SEVERAL YEARS TO BOUNCE BACK FROM IT. I DON'T WANT TO GO THROUGH THAT WITH LOSING MY MOM. I KNOW SHE IS WITH DAD NOW AND IS NO LONGER SUFFERING BUT, THERE IS A SELFISH PART OF ME THAT DOESN'T WANT TO LET HER GO. I LOVED HER SO MUCH......TEARS.....TEARS....MORE TEARS...

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Oct 28, 2011
So sorry to all here :(
by: Angel

I lost my mom last year. It seems like yesterday. But, I know she is in a better place and re united with her parents. Her mom whom she lost when she was 14.
Have faith that yes, she and your father are together again and watching over you. There is no pain, no disease any longer.
She would know you need to grieve but would not want to see you hurting for too long!
She looks like she was an amazing woman. So happy! Reminds me a bit of my mom. Whom I still cry over. It just kind of hits. As I am sure it does for you and all who have responded.
I truly believe they are still with us.
I lost my beloved Teddy Bear last week. A mush of an Alaskan Malamute. He was fine and then bam 36 hours later the decision to make was there he was so ill. But the point I want to make here is that for the 2 weeks or so prior , I had caught glimpses of my mom out of the corner of my eye. Was she here as she knew his time was coming to an end on earth so she could take him with her? I really think I do believe that.
So reading that please believe she is watching you!
I will say prayers for you and yours and send electronic HUGE hugs to you.

Oct 28, 2011
my loss
by: Anonymous

hi i lost my mum in june . i never thought i could live without her and i have , my blessing is that she is at peace and not suffering any more , and i hope that you can think the same . god bless you in your grief xxx

Oct 28, 2011
I feel your pain
by: Kim

I lost my mom a few days ago. I am suffering and broken hearted. It doesn't feel like I will ever get over this. She lived with me for 10 years after my dad passed. I want her back. She wasn't even I'll. I'm just filled with grief. I can't function. My dad was I'll so I was relieved when he passed. This is much different and more traumatic. She was 86 and lived a good beautiful Long life. I still want her back.

Oct 27, 2011
Mom's Are Special
by: TrishJ

Sharon~
I am truly so sorry for your loss. You can be assured your dad was waiting for your mom with open arms. I lost my husband months ago and I know it won't be long for my own mother. She is in end stage dementia and her health is failing. I'm dreading the day.
The only thing that gets me through grieving for my husband is the knowledge that I will see him again someday.
Your mom would want you to be happy and go on with your life. Crying is good for the soul. The emptiness is sometimes overwhelming. We should be thankful for the love we had while we had it. It's just so hard to let go. All you can do is take life one day at a time. Pray for strength. God will listen. Blessings to you.

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