My mom was my everything
My beautiful mom....
I lost my mom on June 3, 2013. She died very suddenly from cardiopulmonary arrest. I am the oldest child of seven. I am 43 years old and my mom was only 59, so you see she was my mother first and foremost but also my best friend as well as a sister. I feel so lost without her and sometimes I don't feel as though I can go on because the pain is so unbearable at times. I have so many what ifs and whys. I don't really know if my mom knew she was as sick as she was, but if she did she never told any of her kids. I started feeling really strange about my life 2 months before my mom passed and all I know for sure is the strange feeling I was feeling made me want to spend time with my mom. The day before she passed so suddenly I spent the whole day with her and I thank God for that. I never knew less then 24 hours later my mom would be gone from my life forever. I really can't even begin to explain the hurt and pain I feel, I really don't know what to do or even say anymore, so I just pray. Can someone please help me. I try to be as strong as I can for my siblings but it seems to get harder and harder each day.