My mom was my love, my everything and I miss her terribly
I lost my mom to an aggressive form of brain cancer August 26, 2012. She was diagnosed in April of the same year and died four months after that. The whole experience was so gut wrenching but in the end I was glad I was still living in the same town as she so I could take care of her and see her everyday, unlike my siblings that moved out of town many years ago. My mom and I were so close..we shared everything. She loved sports and we would analyze every game. It's hard to watch sports without my buddy. She always loved to hear about my day and gave advice and had an injections laugh. She loved theater and music and we would laugh about shows. She taught me everything I know about life, love, sports. My dad died 22 years ago so I am struggling to deal with being an orphan. I struggle with trying to celebrate holidays and make new traditions because my parents, my history is gone. I feel combination of sadness, rage and fear because cancer runs in my family and four out of her 9 siblings died from the disease in the last four years. My boyfriend has both of his parents living and though he offers support, still has no clue because both of his parents are alive and I feel mad and frustrated sometimes. My stomach hurts everyday and it's hard to work full-time. I just have to keep praying but wonder when I will feel somewhat 'normal' again.