My mom was my love, my everything and I miss her terribly

by Velvet
(CT USA)

I lost my mom to an aggressive form of brain cancer August 26, 2012. She was diagnosed in April of the same year and died four months after that. The whole experience was so gut wrenching but in the end I was glad I was still living in the same town as she so I could take care of her and see her everyday, unlike my siblings that moved out of town many years ago. My mom and I were so close..we shared everything. She loved sports and we would analyze every game. It's hard to watch sports without my buddy. She always loved to hear about my day and gave advice and had an injections laugh. She loved theater and music and we would laugh about shows. She taught me everything I know about life, love, sports. My dad died 22 years ago so I am struggling to deal with being an orphan. I struggle with trying to celebrate holidays and make new traditions because my parents, my history is gone. I feel combination of sadness, rage and fear because cancer runs in my family and four out of her 9 siblings died from the disease in the last four years. My boyfriend has both of his parents living and though he offers support, still has no clue because both of his parents are alive and I feel mad and frustrated sometimes. My stomach hurts everyday and it's hard to work full-time. I just have to keep praying but wonder when I will feel somewhat 'normal' again.

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Jan 26, 2013
My mom was my love, my everything and I miss her terribly
by: Doreen U.K.

Velvet Life is cruel. It is hard to lose someone close. To be an ORPHAN is so painful being alone. You have your boyfriend and his parents. Try and forge some relationship for yourself by getting closer to his mom and dad. Of course your boyfriend may not understand how you feel because he still has his parents alive. Don't hold this against him. He will one day lose his parents and then you will be able to support him. By helping yourself and him you will become happier in time. But for now you will grieve your loss of your mom and the relationship you had which was special. Hold it for what it was and go on in time after grief to write your own history in life. It is hard and will see a difficult task. Take it one day at a time.

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