My Mom died on October 11,2010. At first it was a relief because she was sick for so many years. I was her care giver. My Mom was my best friend, when she died I lost not only her but my faith. A few months after she past I started to feel the loss and it is sometimes overwhelming for me. My other family members are dealing with this better than me, and do not fully understand why I am still grieving. I sometimes feel so alone in this and just want the pain to go away.