My mommy my best friend died April 7 2013 very unexpected

by Tacarra Paige
(Oakland, Ca)

My mommy was my best friend. I loved her dearly and she knew it. When I had children my mommy was the best grandmother ever. Anytime I needed her she was right there. My mom was the only one to ever watch my children. She had health problems but never told me how bad they were. My mommy was such a sweet lady and I don't understand how she died all of a sudden without any warning signs. My mommy lived down the street from me with her friend. I would talk to m mommy on the phone every day and she came over quite often. A few times a week she would pick my son up from school and bring him home as she would stay with me for hours and we became very close. I started to get sick about a year ago and I couldn't focus on getting my health together or get my special needs son together. I needed to get away and I explained to my mommy that I needed to move to a better neighborhood so I could focus on my health and my children. She understood and even though she didn't want to see me go she was so happy for me. I wanted my mom to come as she was thinking strongly about it. My brother called my mom and asked him how she gonna let me leave like that and she told him I'm starting over for my family how proud of me she was and she was happy I was gonna be happy. One week after me and my husband and three kids moved out of state we moved in our house and I talked to my mother for 2 hours on the phone and we laughed and she told me he loved me. The next day I talked to her for bout 30 mins and I was so tired I told her I would call her later. That was the last time I talked to my mommy, my best friend. I called her the next morning to tell her some good news I just found out and and she didn't answer. I thought maybe she was at the hospital visiting her friend. I tried Calling her again and still got no answer so I text ed her and asked her to call me. I remembering falling asleep and waking up to my kids playing and my phone ringing with her friends number n my caller I'd. When I answered she said she hadn't talked to my mom and she wasn't answering her phone so she asked her son to go see if she was in her room and she was on the floor... MY HEART DROPPED she said they announced her DEAD. I SCREAMED. I'm still in shock and I don't know if its really hit me that my mommy s gone. She left me, why didn't she tell me. I would have stayed. I miss her so. It's just me and my brother. We don't know how to get through this.

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Apr 25, 2013
your moms soul shines through her smile
by: Anonymous

iI don't know you or your brother but I looked at the foto and the thing I immediately thought was that your moms soul seemed to shine through her smile I feel like she was an incredibly warm and giving person forever looking out for those she loved. With an understanding and forgiving heart for those she may not have approved of she would help them and be kind to them even when you sometimes couldn't understand how she could be so understanding but she cared and Thats just who she was. God bless an I'm truelly sorry for your loss.I also get the feeling that she loved cooking and having family and friends to feed so just keep on remembering her like that and honoring her spirit in death as she was in life.

Apr 19, 2013
You will make it
by: Gary

Your loss is sad but your memories are fond. Think of all her love and goodness. It will hurt but at the same time you will feel her warmth. She is a part of you and by knowing that she still lives on in you. Take care and be kind to yourself this time is very painful.

Apr 16, 2013
your Mom
by: Anonymous

Im am sorry about your loss.

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