My mommy Susan

by Jessica

My mom passed away unexpectedly 3 weeks ago. I had gotten home from school at 1 pm and called her. We talked about my day, her day, my brother, and my daughter's birthday party 2 weeks away. While we were talking about the present she wanted to get her she went quiet. She just stopped talking. I started yelling into the phone and knew something was wrong. I jumped in my car and called 911 as I did. I live less than 5 minutes and beat the paramedics there. With the help of the 911 operator I started chest compressions until the paramedics got there and took over. They were with her in the house for another 15-20 minutes. When they brought her out in the stretcher I asked if they were able to get her breathing again and they said, not yet. I knew then. The ambulance brought her to the hospital and when I got there with my brother they brought us back to the family room with the Chaplin. After 5 minutes the ER doctor came in to say they did everything they could but were unable to revive her. We got to say goodbye in a room right next to the family room, where they brought her. I then had to pick a funeral home and answer questions about organ donation and religious preferences. From the hospital my brother and I had to tell my grandmother. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. I then had to tell my 8 year old daughter that grandma died. Three weeks later it still doesn't seem real. I miss her and love her so much!

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Nov 02, 2012
My mommy Susan
by: Doreen U.K.

Jessica I am sorry for your loss of your Mom Susan 3 weeks ago. It is the worst experience of Pain when you lose someone so precious from your life. It is those difficult days when you are having to face this ordeal of trying to save your loved one and the anxiety of that moment. It is then when our loved one dies that we go into shock and disbelief and cannot believe that this took place. It is rather like an unreal experience. Your world as you knew it stable and secure is now turned upside down and you don't know how to go on in life. All you see racing in front of you is those lonely days ahead without your mom and then it all kicks in. I won't hear her voice anymore or talk to her as I use to. We won't be able to share more memories. My daughter won't know her grandma. her memories have ended. There is so much to lose that our hearts are broken forever.
It is going to take a long time of grief to get over your loss. It is now you will wish this awful pain will go away and you can get back to normal. NORMAL LIFE will have changed forever. the days of grief are hard. Take one day at a time. If you find you cannot bear the pain then go and see a grief counsellor who will support you in your pain and help take the edge off your sorrow and pain. You will get through this in time. I lost my mom 9 years ago and I lost my husband 6 months ago and my nephew 5 years ago, and I am now feeling all the griefs together. A type of sorrow that is hard to recover from. Being in PAIN all the time is difficult to bear. You are not alone. We all know what your Pain is like even though your grief will also be very personal to you. May you have better days ahead and that you will be supported by family and friends.

Nov 02, 2012
Have faith and pray
by: Ammalu

I cried reading your post. I lost my mom suddenly on Aug 20th in India. I feel guilty that I was far away, could not help. But when it's time to go one has to go, it's not in our control. Have faith in God an pray a lot that's the only thing helps during this difficult time. That's how I am coping up.

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