My Mother ... My Lifeline

by Natasha

I lost my mother (53 yrs) on 7th October, 2012 to "Interstitial lung disease (ILD" caused by toxicity of the steroid Methotrexate that she was taking for her Rheumatoid arthritis (RA). Mom was first diagnosed with breathlessness on 18th July, 2012 and was admitted into the ICU for 7 days. She came back home healthy and we thought the worst is over. She started loosing weight (18 kgs) we got her readmitted and she was again doing well at the hospital. We got her home after 13 days on 28th Sept,2012. What a lovely day that was we had redone her room and her sis and niece had come down from overseas to see her. We had a good lunch together. And then tragedy struck the same day at around 7pm. Mom's oxygen levels dipped and she was delirious.. We rushed her in an ambulance to the hospital. From that day till 7th October, 2012 she was on the ventilator and sedated. She died very peacefully with my 2 paternal aunts by her side (i lost my dad when i was 16 and i have no siblings. My dad has 3 sisters who have looked after me as their own)

Its just been 2 weeks and fear of being totally alone is so frightening. I feel Mom should have been around to see me getting married, hold my baby... She was too young to die..

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Oct 22, 2012
Second tradegy struck
by: Natasha

I have another terrible setback.. My mom looked after a little stray pup for the last 1.5yrs. He was in perfect health condition but suddenly stopped eating 5 days ago. I called for a mobile vet who informed me on Saturday 20th October, 2012 that he has jaundice.

I tried force feeding him and giving him his meds yesterday and also arranged to have him admitted at the hospice today at 12:00pm. I got to know at 7:00am today morning that he had died last night (exactly 2 sundays after Mom).

He was truly mum's pet and followed her everywhere... He made sure to follow her to heaven too... Ringo my baby you are back with your Mommy in heaven

Oct 20, 2012
My Mother...... My Lifeline
by: Anonymous

Natasha I am sorry for your loss of your mother who was still very young to die. I know what you say about your fear of the Lonliness and being all ALONE. It is the hardest part of our grief. I lost my husband 5 months ago and this is what I feel now. UTTER ALONENESS. no one to talk to now and share the day to day activities and problems that come up.
My two sisters are on this drug METHOTREXATE for Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia. I am really concerned about them. I don't want to lose them to a drug that is so devastating to the body. I have the same disease but I take Herbal preparations like Glucosamine, and Cod liver oil capsules. That is all one can do for themselves with such a devastating disease. Rheumatoid arthritis is a very painfull disease and I can understand why some people try other routes for relief.
Thank you for sharing your story here. You just may have saved quite a few lives.
I hope you are comforted in your sorrow and grief.

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