My mother's birthday is coming up and..
I am stressing about whether or not I should go up north again. If she wasn't buried so far away this wouldn't be an issue, but she's 1,000 miles away from where I live. So many arrangements would have to be made in order for me to go; airline tickets, rental car, hotel, etc. As much as I want to go, everyone keeps telling me its not worth it because she won't know I'm there. In my mind, I know her spirit is always with me, but on the other hand, this is where her body is. My dad keeps telling me that her body had to go somewhere and this is the purpose of a cemetary. I never had anyone this close to me die. I mean I had grandparents die, but they never meant as much to me as my mother. My mother was my life and when she died, a piece of me died with her. She was so young, only 68 and she died so fast; five months after she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer. Two years later, I still have not come to terms with her death. I just don't know what to do and I need some more guidance. Thanks!