my nana and me
Ok so like seven months ago my Nana past away i didn't even now that she was gonna die i thought she was gonna be here for along time for me my hole world has turned up side down in just one day . me and her was so close i seen her everyday she was like a 2nd mom to me and my friend and my NANA i lost a nana and a friend and myself to i feel like i lost everything it hurts i dont like who i have turned in to i am mad at everybody and was all was a nice person i dont like being mean to anyone but i am . and my nana she moved in with us when we moved in are new house then one morning i was getting ready for school in my room and my nana and i shared a room and she was a sleep so i didn't wont to wake her and i didn't the when i went to turn my light off she wake up and looked at me then she turned to here side she was goon come get me that day after school but my mom texted me at school and told me to get off the bus at my cousin so i did my mom looked like she was crying so i asked why are u crying she said i am not then my step dad told all the family that was there to come in to room and he said your nana has past away to i cried so much i still remember that cry and that day . now i am mad all the time and i have hole in my heart and i am not close to anyone else in my family but her she got me we had close bond. i dont know how to be happy again i keep trying to make my self happy but it does not work i need help i feel like i am so lost and made i dont wont to be mad i wont to be happy again.then when she past away my other family came down her her 2 sisters and brother and her mom well when her brother and his a preacher and i was close to him and he sexually abused me and told me like all this nasty stuff he wonted to do to me i loved him and i thought he loved me to.