My "New" Life

by Ginger
(North Florida)

I lost my sweet precious daughter last September. She was 23 years old, married less than one year. She was also my best friend. Her death was sudden, due to negligence of a doctor. I could not function at first and even had to quit my job. I tried "letting go" of the grief, I tried putting it out of my mind. I finally accepted the fact that I am two people. The one person before her death, and the one that I am now. I don't want to forget the past, I just don't want to live in it. That was posted on this site and I think that phrase only is helping me. I am a different person now, not that I wanted to become who I am now. I am trying daily to live for the present and the future, knowing that I will see her again one day. I posted a picture of me and her walking out on a pier on her favorite beach. If you could photoshop that picture and erase the pier and replace it with a bright shinning light, I think I would caption that picture "Renunion in Heaven". It makes me comforted to see that picture. This is the first I have been able to post. I read and pray for all of these posts almost daily. I know if I had posted, I would be receiving prayers too. I should have, but my grief was to intense. I hope this may help someone who is reading this. I continue through this process of grief. I can never be the same, but I can be someone who my daughter would be proud of.