by Becky Broderick
(casper wy )
Don't know what to do with the pain, hurt and anger I feel right now. My daughter Nicole(Nikki) passed away April 22, 2009.
I don't know how to handle what I'm going through right now. I'm mad at the doctors who messed up, I'm scared for my son who was holding on to her while she was dying (he is 13) and I feel guilty for letting her talk me into going to work and not being there for her.
She was only 22 yrs old. I feel like my whole world is gone and I'm pushing everyone away from me and I feel like I'm going crazy. The hurt and I want to cry all the time, so I try not to deal with it by working alot and trying not to feel or think. I don't want to sleep. that is very bad for me right now.
Please if someone can say anything to help, please do.
Nikki my angel I love you.