my once in a life time love
I lost my wife of 42 years 2 and a half years ago to chemotherapy treatment of cancer. She was my world, my reason for living. I have not been able to stop grieving and I am very tired of the pain. Try as I might, I get little or no joy out of life. I am just waiting around until it is my turn, and I don't think that will come soon enough. I go to bed each night hoping I won't wake up and wake up sorry that I did. I know she wants me to move on, but I don't want another relationship and even if I did she would always be there in my heart.When she died, she took whatever allowed me to love with her, leaving only a bottomless void. Although I won't take my life, I will do nothing to prolong it.