My One and Only Older Brother Took His Life 2 Weeks Ago
It was the worst phone call of my life. My poor mother called me at 6am. I instantly knew something awful had happened. She just said, "bad news about your beautiful brother".
He had been depressed for the last 2.5 years and he had shut himself away from me and my parents and even life long friends. His only confidant was his girl friend who he lived with. I thought it was a phase and he would come around. We let him know that we loved him and we were there for him but the lack of contact over these past 2.5 years was awful. Now it just adds to the hurt. What could/should we have done to prevent this tragedy?
The awful thing about this is that it didn't have to happen. He was 36 years old, tall, handsome, intelligent and successful in his life. He lived life to the full and had many achievements and lots to live for.
It's as if some awful dosease just took hold of him in the last 2 - 3 years and now he's gone. Such an awful, awful waste.
I have had minor depression myself and general anxiety disorder. I'm 33 years old and I'm married and thankfully I have a job that I enjoy.
But I feel such huge loss. My parents are elderly and, other than my wife, my brother was the closest person to me on this earth.
I worry that what happened to him could happen to me. I also feel very alone now as I've no other siblings so no one else can know just what I feel.
However, having read through some posts on this site I see that I'm not alone.
I wish you all the best in coping with your loss.
Thanks for reading.